Friday, June 24, 2011

Why all this misery?

Why does she do this? I mean honestly, she causes all this misery herself.
The reason for my utter frustration is this. Jojo and Wanye are said to be moving out within the next 3 months (YAY!). I've decided to live at home and attend college. Thats not the issue anymore. Uggh, my thoughts are all over the place right now. My mother has decided to watch this girls, Tricia, kids while she attends college. This girl calls my parents "mom" and "dad". She has no relation to my family at all! My MOTHER has decided to entertain her deluded notions that they ARE her parents by telling everyone she is their daughter! Uggh! Both of them are crazy, I swear. This chick is crazy! My parents took her in while I was in California, I cam down for a visit and the house was disgusting. The entire house was trashed and stunk! The bathroom was the worst. When I walked in the house she was just sitting on the couch. I was so mad! I lugged all crap in and went into my room, to fins some of her crap in it. Haha, being the brat that I am. I chucked what wasn't mine out. I told her to clean the bathroom and she told me she would later. I flipped out on her and told her she needed to do it now cause this wasn't her house and she needed to clean up after herself cause I wasn't about to do it. I yelled at her to get out if she wouldn't. Okay, I know. You guys are all thinking I am the crazy one. I'm really not! Everything I do is totally justified. :) So then when my mom gets home a little later, she rushes out the door and calls my mom every name in the book! My mom and her have a yelling match outside and she said she is out of here. Bahaha, at last one of my dastardly plans worked! I got rid of her, just like I wanted to. She couldn't hack it with me here. No one ever can. :P For the longest time I didn't here about her after that. Then when I moved back, a few months in, mom tells me that she (Tricia) was coming over and to be "nice". Haha, I don't play nice. If I don't like you, your going to know and trust me she STILL knows. She ddn't come inside, they all stayed outside. But I could here her kids calling my parents "grandma" and "grandpa" and her calling them "mom" and "dad" still. Ugh so irritating. I have never called my mother names, except for crazy. I have raised a hand at her before when I was younger. ONCE! I'm not proud of it, trust me. That memory is a reminder of why I needed the church in my life and to keep my anger under control.
Anyway, I've gotten off track.
The thing is this. My parents have told me not to move out because everyone else is moving out. I would have the house to myself again, I would get the peace and quiet I need so that I can go back to school. What in her right mind would she think it okay to take these kids in practically 24/7?! Why is she so crazy sometimes!? I honestly can't take it. I try asking her she just says its cause its what she would do for any of us, and like us she is her kid too. I laughed and said that she isn't. She is just some stupid girl USING them. She should get her own dang family and stay away from mine. My mother really causes all theses problems. No one else. Just her. I'm living here too! I do get a say in what goes on in this house! The couches in the front room are mine!
On top of that, today was the day to work on my car. Caleb was suppose to come over around 6AM to work on it with me. I text him at 6 to see if he is still coming over . He texts back around 7 and says yeah, and that he crashed and was sorry. I say okay and that I will see him in a bit. Haha, 8 comes around and he's still not here. He then tells me that we are going to have to post pone the breaks and tire rotation. Something is wrong with his tahoe and he has to get it fixed, yada yada blah blah. I have a hard time believing anything he says. Mind you the rush on the breaks and tires is because he has asked me to drive him to his court hearing on the 29th. I told him I'd go get him after my appointment, because this couldn't be post poned. He just says text me and see what I am doing. WTHeck!? I'm getting a little histerical at this point. He pretty much quit replying to my texts. I don't like change. Its hard for me to just let things go. Once I have something in my mind I freak out till its accomplished. Luckily Caleb knows this. He called me and tell me why he couldn't do this and is apologizing to me cause he knows I'm already stressing at this point. I ended up tearing up on the phone with him just cause I am so overwhelmed with nothing going right. I told him sorry as well, for freaking out. He said it's okay and understandable. This is why I don't rely on others. Because things happen where they can't do what they had said they would. Instead of dealing with the stress of life, in that sense. I just don't put myself in that situation. Well try not to.
This is also why I go to the gym. Its definitely a stress reliever, but this is why I would much rather go at night or around 9AM.
Now I don't know when my car will get done, he gets off at 10PM and I already bought the break pads. And I don't know what I am going to do with this living situation. I just don't get how some people can be so irresponsible. Why take on someone elses problems when you can't even handle your own?! Uggh.
If things change I will update, as always. I will do a different blog dedicated to my workout/diet routine. Uggh, I just really needed to vent. Thanks for letting me do this. Uggh Jojo is yelling for me. Got to go!

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