Dad woke me up to go to the gym today. I wasn't planning on working out so I went in my flip flops. I ended up working out. It was rediculous. I was there and I just felt so guilty for even thinking about NOT working out. I didn't stay along. I was in flip flops after all. I did 15 minutes on cardio, 10 on the bike and 5 on the fit stride. Then 15 on weights. 100 tricep presses. 60 inner thigh work outs. 10 butterflies. 15 pull downs. 20 ab curls, normal, with 10 lb weights on each side.
I came straight home after the gym and had my protein shake. I was just crawling into bed and pulling the covers over my head to go back to bed when I received a text from Caleb checking to see if I was "up and at em" around 4:45AM. He asked me a couple weeks ago to go to his court hearing with him in St. Johns. I said sure. I got in the shower and proceeded to get ready. I asked him what I should wear and he told me business dress. He got here around 5AM. I wasn't quite ready yet. I let him in and finished getting ready. We were on the road around 5:25AM. I had him drive. I really don't like driving. We stopped to get gas a couple times and to go to the bathroom.
We got there around 9:15AM. His court didn't start till 10:30AM. We decided to go on a walk. As we were walking he looks at me and asks me if he can ask me something without getting upset. I told him he knew me well enough to know what upsets me and what doesn't. I told him to choose wisely. I couldn't make any promises. After a couple minutes of him just contemplating wether he should ask or not he reluctantly does. He asks me to go to the library during the hearing and to not go in with him. I was upset. Not mad upset just disappointed. I thought the whole reason for me going was to be his moral support. Of course, I tell him it does bother me, but it is his court hearing not mine and if he doesn't want me there than so be it. He says he does want me there just thinks it would be better if I didn't go in. He didn't want my presence to stir anything up with the ex. I then told him no matter what she or anyone said about him I would still feel the same way as I do now. I wouldn't ever change the way I think or feel about him based on what someone else says about him. He said he knew that. I said fine I'll go to the library.
We walk back to the court house. He hugs me and walks off. I get in the car and drive away. What was the real purpose of me going? Did he really want me there? Yeah, I know. He was probably just using me (more likely than not). But someone needed to go with him.
I went to the library and found a book to read. The Chinese Cinderella. Its a biography. I read it in high school and wasn't sure I'd be able to get into. I've never been able to read a book twice. I find it boring. I was so happy! I read 50 pages of it when I got a call from Caleb to go pick him and the kids up at the park. The call was registering as his ex wife's number. I was reluctant to answer. I picked it up anyway. As Caleb was talking the phone dropped the call. I gave the librarian the book and walked outside to answer another call from him. I ask him why he has her phone, he snaps at me and says "don't worry about it!". That pissed me off. I said I'll be there to get you and hung up.
That was the only time he snapped at me. We did really well spending the entire day together. We didn't get into any fights or arguments. I was quite proud of myself. He was texting people, which annoys me more than anything in the world, in front of me. I didn't say anything. I just let it be. Ignored it all together.
The way home was a blast! We went to the store and bought a couple kids CD's. We jammed out to all sorts of kids music on the way home and played with the kids. Tickling their toes and throwing Conner's dirty socks at everyone. They were laughing the entire time as were we. Haha with all the singing going along it made me feel like people were looking at us and thinking we were one of those "weird families" riding in a caravan that are always smiling and happy. Yeah, terrible thought! It was so fun. Me and Caleb did a dance off in the car and did a duet to Summer Nights (sing a long) from Grease. He sang the guys part and I sang the girls part. We both got into that song. It was fun. We sang Jump in the Line and that Me Say Day - O song. It was so much fun.
He drove the entire time. I was very thankful for that. He even payed for everything. I could've bought my own food but he didn't let me.
For breakfast I had peanut butter crackers. For lunch, we went to McDonalds. I had some chicken nuggets and french fries with a lemonade. Then Caleb took us for dessert to DQ. He asked what I wanted and I told him I didn't want a lot. Maybe a couple bites of something so he asked if I wanted to share a medium blizzard. I said yeah. He couldn't even finish it! I had a couple bites. I didn't eat anything for dinner. I wasn't hungry till late.
I really did have a very enjoyable time with Caleb and the kids. I kind of miss days like yesterday with him. Always laughing and never arguing. We had fun in the beginning. I'm just sad it had to end at one point. Too many lies, too many trust issues.
I think I might buy the previously mentioned book and add it to my collection. It really is a good book.
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