Oh my goodness! I didn't go to bed till about 10:30PM last night. It was miserable getting up this morning. Dad woke me up, I rolled out of bed, got ready and got in the car. He was outside before I was. I went to the gym. I just don't do well going to the gym at 4AM. Im not fully awake so I don't put forth all my effort. I just do it for the sake of doing it. I did 2 miles in 30 minutes. I literally had to push myself so hard just to make it in 30 minutes. I thought I was going to finish at 35. I couldn't let myself though. I just couldn't. I pushed myself, its definitely easier to go to the gym and give it my all at 9 AM. I didn't even do any weights. I just did 20 sit ups. I am disappointed in myself today. Uggh. I need more drive. I just lack energy at that time now days. What to do, what to do?
I was running late so I skipped breakfast. I had a lean cuisine for lunch with carrots and pickled cucumber slices. It was pretty good. For dinner, I asked Caleb to go to Subway and get me a sandwich. I was at work still. I had an Italian BMT, 6 inch. It was yummy. Oh and a Root Beer with dinner. Thats all I've had today. Not too many calories, just a lot of carbs.
Caleb went to walmart today so I asked him to pick me up a movie, I gave him my card. Beastly. I can't wait to watch it! It was very nice of him to do all those things for me today. We tried hanging out when I got off of work, It didn't go well. We just fought. It bothers me that he is on his phone while we are suppose to be watching movies and hanging out. I asked him to put it away and he makes a big deal about it. He says it bothers him when I am on mine, which really is a very rare occasion. I don't text anyone anymore. I don't have a lot of friends since moving back. No one to text. Anyway, I told him that he needs to speak up then. I don't know why its such a big deal to me, it just is. I get so upset and angry when someone is just texting and not paying any attention to me, especially when they are the ones that invited me over. Uggh. Stupid boys. Stupid emotions.
I did an 11 hr shift today and I am exhausted. I have been up since 4AM and its now 9:30. Its time for me to go to bed. Im just gonna be a grumpy mess tomorrow. Not sure if I will work out tomorrow or not. Soooo TIRED!
Oh wait! Awesome news! I should have taken a picture, but its a little hard when its a full body shot. I put some pants on that I always wore in HS, expecting them to not fit. They looked so teeny tiny! Well, I put them on and they fit PERFECTLY! In fact, they were a little loose on my toosh and legs. :) YAY! They honestly fit better now then when I wore them in HS. I don't weigh any less, in fact I weigh more. I must have toned up quite a bit! :) It made me so happy and think I was the hottest girl ever this AM. :)
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